When I was ready to give up on my life, I allowed God to come into my life and make me different. As a child, I was happy and lived a good life. I had a good Mom and a Father that loved me. My parents kept me involved in church. But when I was 13 years old, my parents got a divorce. That was my first real hurt that I did not know how to handle. So then I needed an escape so I started experimenting with drugs. Then I met my first husband who is the father of my two kids. It was not the marriage I had hoped for. It was a physically abusive relationship. I wanted out of the marriage and to deal with the pain, my addiction really started. Then I met another man that I really loved and we got engaged. One morning I woke up and found him dead. Then shortly after that, my father passed away. I really went off the deep end. I went to several rehab centers and they never worked for me. Now I know it was because I did not have a relationship with the Lord.
Then when I was 32 years old I met another man and began a relationship that made me so miserable I wanted to die. He was really abusive and would have killed me if I had stayed. I had never felt so hopeless and so alone. The last time he abused me so bad, I was left lying there broken and helpless. My childhood came to mind. I remembered that I was such a happy little girl and knew that as a woman now I could have that happiness again and deserved it.
I had to get away from the life I was living. I called my Mother and asked for help and on July 15, 2018, my Mom took me to meet Mrs. Cathy and I went to Titus 2. Then I started seeing the life I wanted to live at church. I saw the joy the women had and I wanted to feel that joy. Now, with God in my life I feel that joy and happiness. The work of the Lord that he has done for me has changed me forever. I want to share that same joy with others.